Friday night was rather drunken and ended at the same bar as Walk of Shame Boy (WSB). The night was coming to a close and, after nothing more than casual conversation throughout the night, WSB blurts out, "So, do you want to come home with me." Um, no. Even if Guy from Work hadn't been there or if I hadn't had bad underwear on, unshaven legs and things to do Saturday morning, the answer would have been no. There was some begging and pleading (on his part) and I pointed out, for the record, that even if I were to go home with him I still wouldn't sleep with him and then he tried to convince me that he "just wanted someone to lay next to." Um, give me a break. I told him that I didn't believe him, he'd change his mind when we got home, and then say more mean things to me.
So I left.
And when I woke up Saturday morning he had emailed me. And we've emailed on and off the past two days. So its very, very interesting that when I did go home with him I didn't hear from him and when I didn't go home with him he shows some interest. I guess a little hard to get (not that I'm sure thats what I'm doing, I might just not be interested) is sometimes a good thing.
Kind of crazy weekend was rounded out with a few uneventful bike rides and runs ... not worth going into detail here.
In other news, Guy from Work lent me some CDs. One, The Hold Steady, has a line "I've had kisses that make judas seem sincere." Not suprisingly, I like that line ...
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
I'm sick of being the friend.
Seriously. Sick of it.
But I had 4 beers tonight. Then I had pretzels and oreo cookies for dinner. THEN I rode my bike for 30 minutes and 5.68 miles (which isn't very fast) and more or less kept my HR in check (145 avg. but it spiked a bit) so at least I've got that going for me.
But seriously, I'm sick of it.
'Night.
But I had 4 beers tonight. Then I had pretzels and oreo cookies for dinner. THEN I rode my bike for 30 minutes and 5.68 miles (which isn't very fast) and more or less kept my HR in check (145 avg. but it spiked a bit) so at least I've got that going for me.
But seriously, I'm sick of it.
'Night.
Monday, October 16, 2006
are you KIDDING me?
So, after a few too many drinks this Saturday I wound up on the phone with 2x having the same (getting) old conversation - I should move to Chicago, kissing him was like coming home, now that we have some maturity to our credit we could get back together, get married and be the fun couple with beautiful children.
Of course, it all sounds good at 3 am, but come Monday morning, when you're him, its easier to maintain the status quo. Whatever. Its a bit of an emotional roller coaster for me but its one of those instances where only time will tell ... I get no where by forcing the issue one way or another and as long as I keep my options open and don't sit here pinning I think its okay to place this one in the "we'll see category."
Anyway ... tonight I bought a Marie Claire, its the November issue and this is my horoscope:
"You know how they say 'never sleep with an ex'? Well, guess what? 'They' are finally wrong - at least for the first three weeks of the month, when Mercury goes retrograde. In fact, consider ex-sex a birthday gift to yourself - unless, of course you've dated losers. In that case, maybe you should use this time to find a new future ex."
Um ... are you KIDDING me?? And, its 2x's horoscope too. Interesting ...
In other news, went swimming tonight. 10x100 again this time between 1:39-1:49 so faster but with higher heart rates ... I think that might be the difference between am workouts and pm workouts ...
Of course, it all sounds good at 3 am, but come Monday morning, when you're him, its easier to maintain the status quo. Whatever. Its a bit of an emotional roller coaster for me but its one of those instances where only time will tell ... I get no where by forcing the issue one way or another and as long as I keep my options open and don't sit here pinning I think its okay to place this one in the "we'll see category."
Anyway ... tonight I bought a Marie Claire, its the November issue and this is my horoscope:
"You know how they say 'never sleep with an ex'? Well, guess what? 'They' are finally wrong - at least for the first three weeks of the month, when Mercury goes retrograde. In fact, consider ex-sex a birthday gift to yourself - unless, of course you've dated losers. In that case, maybe you should use this time to find a new future ex."
Um ... are you KIDDING me?? And, its 2x's horoscope too. Interesting ...
In other news, went swimming tonight. 10x100 again this time between 1:39-1:49 so faster but with higher heart rates ... I think that might be the difference between am workouts and pm workouts ...
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Facts, Plans and Musings
Three Facts
1. The individuals that carry golf umbrellas when it rains ... they deserve to have a porcupine sit on their face:)
2. Thirty-one year olds who write emails that say "So ... did I tell you I have a girlfriend?" are odd. Who says that?
3. I am a horrendous bike rider - it took me 30 minutes to go 6 miles ... but I did it during Grey's and kept my heartrate low so, thus far, I've followed the guidelines.
Weekend Plans
My sister is coming home this weekend so I'm going home tomorrow night and then we'll go shopping on Saturday. She's going to a party Saturday night so I'll probably find something to do that involves drinking and not being at my parents' house. Speaking of my parents' house: they moved in February and I don't have a bedroom anymore so I have to sleep on the foldout couch. Sucks.
Musings
When I was deciding what kind of car to get, I was insistent that I did not want a coupe (two door, which is what I wound up getting). 1x has a two door car and I felt like it was impossible to get into ... like after you sat down as low as you comfortable could there was a period of free fall before your ass hit the seat. And we won't talk about getting out of the car or doing either after running 18 miles ... I was explaining this to Dad and he commented that the shocks on that car had alot to deal with so it was probably riding really low (1x, among other things, was not svelte). The next day I was at a bar having dinner with my brother - the couple next to us, the guy was heavyset and wearing white leather sneakers with a rugby styled shirt and his wife was this pretty blond thing. When they left my brother commented that the guy had way over achieved . I had been thinking the same thing - that and there but for the grace of God go I ...
I am the only single person in my department at work.
In a moment of boredom the other day I made a list of people that I am going to invite to my Christmas party (my three readers are of course invited if they want to come ... its going to be December 16 so get your plane tickets now, wives, husbands, boyfriends and daughters are invited as well of course!). There was only one single guy. There were six single girls (including myself).
I know that this is all about having fun, but sometimes, enough is enough.
1. The individuals that carry golf umbrellas when it rains ... they deserve to have a porcupine sit on their face:)
2. Thirty-one year olds who write emails that say "So ... did I tell you I have a girlfriend?" are odd. Who says that?
3. I am a horrendous bike rider - it took me 30 minutes to go 6 miles ... but I did it during Grey's and kept my heartrate low so, thus far, I've followed the guidelines.
Weekend Plans
My sister is coming home this weekend so I'm going home tomorrow night and then we'll go shopping on Saturday. She's going to a party Saturday night so I'll probably find something to do that involves drinking and not being at my parents' house. Speaking of my parents' house: they moved in February and I don't have a bedroom anymore so I have to sleep on the foldout couch. Sucks.
Musings
When I was deciding what kind of car to get, I was insistent that I did not want a coupe (two door, which is what I wound up getting). 1x has a two door car and I felt like it was impossible to get into ... like after you sat down as low as you comfortable could there was a period of free fall before your ass hit the seat. And we won't talk about getting out of the car or doing either after running 18 miles ... I was explaining this to Dad and he commented that the shocks on that car had alot to deal with so it was probably riding really low (1x, among other things, was not svelte). The next day I was at a bar having dinner with my brother - the couple next to us, the guy was heavyset and wearing white leather sneakers with a rugby styled shirt and his wife was this pretty blond thing. When they left my brother commented that the guy had way over achieved . I had been thinking the same thing - that and there but for the grace of God go I ...
I am the only single person in my department at work.
In a moment of boredom the other day I made a list of people that I am going to invite to my Christmas party (my three readers are of course invited if they want to come ... its going to be December 16 so get your plane tickets now, wives, husbands, boyfriends and daughters are invited as well of course!). There was only one single guy. There were six single girls (including myself).
I know that this is all about having fun, but sometimes, enough is enough.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Sad News; Funny Story; New Plan
SAD NEWS:(
My training program was cancelled. Actually, its not that sad. These runs at 180 bpm were probably not doing anything good for me and there was only one guy with questionable sexuality ... so, as long as I don't become a sloth (As an aside, did you know that there is an actual animal called a sloth? Its creepy looking.) this winter, it'll be okay. And I get my Sunday mornings back which means I get my Saturday nights back ... which is fun. As for avoiding becoming a sloth - I've got a plan ... but first I've got a:
FUNNY STORY!
[Due to paranoia, the funny story has been deleted]
Now, for the:
NEW PLAN:)
Its not that elaborate, so hopefully you didn't get too excited. I downloaded a training schedule for a half-marathon in mid-March. It calls for 3 days a week of running which will be good for my pesky overuse injuries and 2 or 3 days a week of cross training which will allow me to still swim (which makes me have sexy arms ... and I like sexy arms) and bike (on the trainer, while I watch tv in accordance with the rules below).
As alluded to above, the new plan has rules:
1. Try to do this low heart rate crap for as long as I can stand it and determine once and for all if it works. Maybe a month? Low for me is below 150 which may not even allow me to run ... but I'll try.
2. Try to get workouts done in the am but, if I miss a workout, I miss a workout. No stressing or fitting a weeks worth of workouts into a weekend. Definitely no stress if work doesn't let me go to bed by midnight.
3. I really only watch 3 tv shows right now (Lost, The Nine and Grey's). If I'm watching them before midnight, try to ride the bike (at least for half of each show).
Hmmm, I guess these are rules, more then guidelines. Whatever.
I think that for now, this should be enough to allow me to keep my mind off of the baby/wedding bonaza/left fest going on around without getting too OCD. We'll see.
My training program was cancelled. Actually, its not that sad. These runs at 180 bpm were probably not doing anything good for me and there was only one guy with questionable sexuality ... so, as long as I don't become a sloth (As an aside, did you know that there is an actual animal called a sloth? Its creepy looking.) this winter, it'll be okay. And I get my Sunday mornings back which means I get my Saturday nights back ... which is fun. As for avoiding becoming a sloth - I've got a plan ... but first I've got a:
FUNNY STORY!
[Due to paranoia, the funny story has been deleted]
Now, for the:
NEW PLAN:)
Its not that elaborate, so hopefully you didn't get too excited. I downloaded a training schedule for a half-marathon in mid-March. It calls for 3 days a week of running which will be good for my pesky overuse injuries and 2 or 3 days a week of cross training which will allow me to still swim (which makes me have sexy arms ... and I like sexy arms) and bike (on the trainer, while I watch tv in accordance with the rules below).
As alluded to above, the new plan has rules:
1. Try to do this low heart rate crap for as long as I can stand it and determine once and for all if it works. Maybe a month? Low for me is below 150 which may not even allow me to run ... but I'll try.
2. Try to get workouts done in the am but, if I miss a workout, I miss a workout. No stressing or fitting a weeks worth of workouts into a weekend. Definitely no stress if work doesn't let me go to bed by midnight.
3. I really only watch 3 tv shows right now (Lost, The Nine and Grey's). If I'm watching them before midnight, try to ride the bike (at least for half of each show).
Hmmm, I guess these are rules, more then guidelines. Whatever.
I think that for now, this should be enough to allow me to keep my mind off of the baby/wedding bonaza/left fest going on around without getting too OCD. We'll see.
Monday, October 09, 2006
Amazing & Exciting
First, the amazing. Two things actually:
1. The fact that I got up and swam before work today is amazing.
2. The rate at which one looses swimming fitness is also amazing. I last swam 2 weeks ago and did a 3000 yd workout including a fairly long ladder set. I had a short ladder set planned for this morning preceded by 5 100s. After a warmup and the first 100 I abandoned the ladder for 10 x 100 (a 1500 yd workout in all). Good news though is that all 10 were fairly consistent (not fast, but consistently 1:49-1:51). So ... I have something to work on ... going further, getting those 100s faster, etc.
And now, for the exciting ... I got a car! Well, I don't actually have it yet ... its on a boat from Germany (or at least that is what I like to think), and should be here early next week, but this is what it will look like:
http://www.bmwusa.com/vehicles/3/328xicoupe/default
Mine will be Monaco Blue Metallic with Saddle Brown on the inside ... Definitely, a much, much nicer car than I need but I'm going with not so nice that I don't deserve it ...??
The car is the most commitment I have ever made to anything, I don't even have a plant and I signed a 3 year lease so ... I guess I'm growing up. And I tell ya, its exhausting. In addition to signing the lease, my dad was meeting me there to make sure they didn't pull the wool over my eyes with anything and he was one hour late and he wasn't answering his cell phone - turns out that he forgot his cell phone and then got stuck in Columbus day traffic but I was sure that something horrendous had happened and it was going to be all my fault (for making him come with me). Of course while he was missing, my mother got all freaked out and then dad got annoyed with us for over reacting ... but what were we supposed to think??? Men, I tell ya.
Anyway, I'm beat. Goodnight boys & girls!
1. The fact that I got up and swam before work today is amazing.
2. The rate at which one looses swimming fitness is also amazing. I last swam 2 weeks ago and did a 3000 yd workout including a fairly long ladder set. I had a short ladder set planned for this morning preceded by 5 100s. After a warmup and the first 100 I abandoned the ladder for 10 x 100 (a 1500 yd workout in all). Good news though is that all 10 were fairly consistent (not fast, but consistently 1:49-1:51). So ... I have something to work on ... going further, getting those 100s faster, etc.
And now, for the exciting ... I got a car! Well, I don't actually have it yet ... its on a boat from Germany (or at least that is what I like to think), and should be here early next week, but this is what it will look like:
http://www.bmwusa.com/vehicles/3/328xicoupe/default
Mine will be Monaco Blue Metallic with Saddle Brown on the inside ... Definitely, a much, much nicer car than I need but I'm going with not so nice that I don't deserve it ...??
The car is the most commitment I have ever made to anything, I don't even have a plant and I signed a 3 year lease so ... I guess I'm growing up. And I tell ya, its exhausting. In addition to signing the lease, my dad was meeting me there to make sure they didn't pull the wool over my eyes with anything and he was one hour late and he wasn't answering his cell phone - turns out that he forgot his cell phone and then got stuck in Columbus day traffic but I was sure that something horrendous had happened and it was going to be all my fault (for making him come with me). Of course while he was missing, my mother got all freaked out and then dad got annoyed with us for over reacting ... but what were we supposed to think??? Men, I tell ya.
Anyway, I'm beat. Goodnight boys & girls!
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Lovely Weekend
Well, by the end it was lovely. Friday I was overtired, overworked and lacking in weekend plans so I was in a foul mood. I'm surprised anyone at work was willing to talk to me - pretty much all I did was scowl and slam doors ... by the time I got home, things were not much improved but after a nap and a few miles on the treadmill I was a bit more human. Wound up meeting my brother out for a drink with some of his friends from school. I felt soooooooooo old. Wow.
Saturday my parents took me to look at cars. I'm a bit torn because I can afford the car I like but in light of the fact that I'll really only ever drive it on the weekend (i.e., I don't drive to work) it probably doesn't make sense to get the car I want ... but I don't want the cars I should get and so on and so forth. But, I'm pretty sure that I know what I'm going to do ... its a surprise though because I have too many people giving me opinions right now and I don't want to have anyone try to change my mind ... blah, blah.
Anyway, there is a guy in my running group now. But I think he's gay, because, well, do straight guys wear Prada sunglasses to go running? It just seemed odd. I'm still the slowest but at least now there are more of us.
After running, I took a serious nap. The kind of nap where you wake up and don't know what day it is ... then ran some errands. Got some stuff I needed for the apartment, did a bit of work, scoped out the cuties at church and cooked some dinner that will be leftovers for a few days.
So there we are. Not exciting but nice. I feel a bit more organized going into the week than I did after last weekend's drama:)
Good weeks to all!
Saturday my parents took me to look at cars. I'm a bit torn because I can afford the car I like but in light of the fact that I'll really only ever drive it on the weekend (i.e., I don't drive to work) it probably doesn't make sense to get the car I want ... but I don't want the cars I should get and so on and so forth. But, I'm pretty sure that I know what I'm going to do ... its a surprise though because I have too many people giving me opinions right now and I don't want to have anyone try to change my mind ... blah, blah.
Anyway, there is a guy in my running group now. But I think he's gay, because, well, do straight guys wear Prada sunglasses to go running? It just seemed odd. I'm still the slowest but at least now there are more of us.
After running, I took a serious nap. The kind of nap where you wake up and don't know what day it is ... then ran some errands. Got some stuff I needed for the apartment, did a bit of work, scoped out the cuties at church and cooked some dinner that will be leftovers for a few days.
So there we are. Not exciting but nice. I feel a bit more organized going into the week than I did after last weekend's drama:)
Good weeks to all!
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
The Best Laid Plans
Tonight was the first meeting of my 'new' running group. I feel a bit guilty because this inherently means that I'm cheating on my 'old' running group; but, the new group is (i) cheaper; (ii) training for a well placed (i.e., the Sunday after Thanksgiving) cross country 15K (I've never run cross country, or a 15K for that matter, and it will get me back in running shape for a longer early spring race if I so choose); and (iii) its co-ed.
Sounds good in theory, right? Well, as previously mentioned, the first run was tonight. Our group is made up of 3 GIRLS and I'm the slowest. Yeah. And tonight's run was just under 5 miles; which is the longest I've run since at least April and maybe the marathon. So, nothing like a nice 4.7 mile jog in heart rate zone 4 (seriously, my average was 176, my max was 186 and my max (MAX, if you see this number, lay down and call 911, MAX) is 198) to try to appear respectable in front of your team mates.
Hmmm. It has potential to get me in shape if nothing else, but, um, unless more people, err, boys, show up, its not exactly what I had thought I'd be giving up my Sunday mornings for.
So, we'll see.
For now, work, work, work and more work. And 4.7 miles, in 48.17 minutes with the aforementioned really high HRs!
Sounds good in theory, right? Well, as previously mentioned, the first run was tonight. Our group is made up of 3 GIRLS and I'm the slowest. Yeah. And tonight's run was just under 5 miles; which is the longest I've run since at least April and maybe the marathon. So, nothing like a nice 4.7 mile jog in heart rate zone 4 (seriously, my average was 176, my max was 186 and my max (MAX, if you see this number, lay down and call 911, MAX) is 198) to try to appear respectable in front of your team mates.
Hmmm. It has potential to get me in shape if nothing else, but, um, unless more people, err, boys, show up, its not exactly what I had thought I'd be giving up my Sunday mornings for.
So, we'll see.
For now, work, work, work and more work. And 4.7 miles, in 48.17 minutes with the aforementioned really high HRs!
Sunday, October 01, 2006
I thought my 'walk of shame' days were over ...
and then I found myself on the train at 9am wearing red cowboy boots and a black halter top. Do you think anyone thought I had an early morning errand in the city that required that outfit?
It was fun though, in a (I suspect) meaningless way. But I think even I'm allowed meaningless everyonce in awhile despite the fact that it makes me feel incredibly guilty, and no, we didn't do anything bad (not for lacking of trying on one party's part though) ... I can't even imagine the guilt I'd be feeling if we did do that (not that I would, I don't think I have a one night stand in me).
So yeah, fun, guilty, walk of shame. Slept till almost one when I got home b/c the accommodations there were like 800 degrees. And now, I get to be the representative grandchild at my grandmother's birthday dinner. How fun does that sound with a hang over? Good thing I didn't get a hickey:) And so much for the work I thought I'd get done tonight ...
Someday, I really will grow up!
It was fun though, in a (I suspect) meaningless way. But I think even I'm allowed meaningless everyonce in awhile despite the fact that it makes me feel incredibly guilty, and no, we didn't do anything bad (not for lacking of trying on one party's part though) ... I can't even imagine the guilt I'd be feeling if we did do that (not that I would, I don't think I have a one night stand in me).
So yeah, fun, guilty, walk of shame. Slept till almost one when I got home b/c the accommodations there were like 800 degrees. And now, I get to be the representative grandchild at my grandmother's birthday dinner. How fun does that sound with a hang over? Good thing I didn't get a hickey:) And so much for the work I thought I'd get done tonight ...
Someday, I really will grow up!
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